The boys no longer ask everyday .. I suppose that is a bit of relief but for me it’s not getting easier. I can’t find the strength to put up a tree .. just wish we could blur out the holidays. How do you fix broken
Time is suppose to bring healing .. It hasn’t yet. With each day brings new hurt .. memories are harder to think about. So much loss .. So many tears .. I think back over the last 7 months and I wonder why I’m still here.. I can’t help but think I’m still here because I haven’t suffered enough .. God has prepared more pain to come. I’m too tired .. I wish it were all over.. Just end it now
The darkness of evil
"...this is the condemnation, that the light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. For everyone practicing evil hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed. But he who does the truth comes to the light, that his deeds may be clearly seen, that they have been done in God."
"There are those who rebel against the light, who do not know its ways or stay in its paths... The eye of the adulterer watches for dusk; he thinks, 'No eye will see me,' and he keeps his face concealed... For all of them, deep darkness is their morning; they make friends with the terrors of darkness."
"This is the judgment: that light has entered the world, and men have preferred darkness to light because their deeds were evil. Everybody who does wrong hates the light and keeps away from it, for fear his deeds may be exposed. But everybody who is living by the truth will come to the light to make it plain that all he has done has been done through God."